She was elusive.
She was today. She was tomorrow.
She was the faintest scent of a cactus flower,
the flitting shadow of an elf owl.

We did not know what to make of her.
In our minds we tried to pin her to corkboard like a butterfly,
but the pin merely went through
and away she flew.
- Jerry Spinelli

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Warning: This post ain't gonna the average pauline post to add to her goody-two-shoe collection. Consider yourself warned.

Y'know, I ain't just another biatch you can bid to your likings under the command of those sickening sweet nothings. Hell! They're not even the least flattering. Even a man stuck in the dark can see the ammount of sincerity you inject into them - a big fat NOTHING. What's there to see? They're just as void as that hole in your cavities where your heart is supposed to be - or those nerves and whatsnots in your brain where your sentimental values are supposedly processed.

What was I thinking? You were trying to squirt lime concentrates and sprinkle Dead Sea salt into my wounds, weren't you, you bloody sexomaniac? I mean, wtf man? I know most guys are horny but when one as freaking screwed up as you add obnoxiety, egocentricness, insensitivity and a hell of other negativity into the bundle... boy, you blew me away! You care for none but your wanking buddies: the innanimate objects like those blasphemous media of yours.

Ah, there you are, you've just signed in and I don't know why but I softened up just like that. Guess that I can't stay angry for too long but DO watch where you step, that's my nerves right there.


Spiffy ain't it? How one can say so much about a certain "you" without having to mention who it refers to. Well well, the beauty of ambiguity, the marvels of diction.


"What are fears but voices airy?
Whispering harm where harm is not.
And deluding the unwary
Till the fatal bolt is shot!"
---- Wordsworth

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

Your Brain's Pattern

Your brain is always looking for the connections in life. You always amaze your friends by figuring out things first. You're also good at connecting people - and often play match maker. You see the world in fluid, flexible terms. Nothing is black or white.

O, she doth teach the torches to burn bright
As is she hang upon the cheek of night
As a rich jewel in an Ethiop’s ear
Beauty too rich for use, for earth too dear
So shows a snowy dove trooping with crows
As yonder lady o’er her fellows shows
The measure is done; I’ll watch her place of stand
And touching hers, make blessed my rude hand
Did my heart love till now? Forswear it sight
For I never saw true beauty till this night

Romeo and Juliet - William Shakespeare
Y.W., Willy says:
oh iya oh iya paull!!
lu uda tau belon
communication.. ada 5 level?

COMET!

Cliche Conversation
ini maksudnya >> no personal sharing

Reporting facts on Others
yg ini... cuman nge gosip doank

Mention ideas and judgments
yg ini baru komunikasi sebenarnya baru mulai.. di sini, mulai ada interaksi secara personal

Emotion and feelings
the person shares how he/she personally feels about the facts, ideas and judgments... the feelings underneath those areas are now revealed

Truthful open communication
yg ini the bestt!!
all deep relationship must be based on absolute openness and honesty
this may be difficult to achieve because it involves risk of being rejected because of our honesty


-end of transmission-
I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road along

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come



Don't know why I'm posting this but... it's been a while since I last posted a song's lyrics, eh?
I still have my battle scars you know... as in physical, literal ones. Prove that once upon a time, I was proud enough to fall; proud enough to let my guard down and fall.
it's the very remembrance of u
which helps me pull thru
adieu...







ussimi
So. I went to the neighbourhood mall earlier this evening and was so delighted to find out that there's an actual skating rink in it that I flashed my trademark dunderhead grin, one that I can never control even if it suddenly surfaces at a funeral. Now who's to say that I'm not expressive? Anyway, what's really amazing about the hockey team which was practising is how lithe they all were even under the bulk of all those pads and equipments. They manoeuvered their way across the ice (on which I recently and embarrassingly found out that I can barely walk on) with such ease that makes them such a sight to see... practically the whole food court was watching their every moves and thus I feel at home gaping at 'um hot stuff with the locals.

Oh and I'm watching Orlando Bloom gorgeously clad a suit of armor... oh wait... now he's nekkid o.o Troy
Just before my very first day at UCSD (read: the international transfer student orientation which doesn't sound the slightest bit attractive and is mandatory to make things worse), I hereby pledge that I won't spend any sum of money for unnecessary things just to prove that I have the money. Sounds snobbish, huh? Well try living with people who snort at the mention of your name, thinking that you're a freaking miser who can't afford a car just because you're too bloody lazy to drive one. Whatever.
I can now proudly announce to the world that I have stepped a foot upon the lands of San Diego. How 'bout that? I'm feeling pretty hyper (even for my standard) though the only form of sugar I have at hand is but a bag of two pieces of Tom's Cookies back from San Francisco. Man, I'll so miss my dearest SF. I don't feel as sad as I morbidly feared I'd be; true, it's heart-breaking to leave my dearest Sunday School kids without even bidding them a proper farewell, aside from the other irreplaceable SF peeps. May we all be reunited again someday... and not just up in heaven. It's finally time for me to move on but may our paths meet again some time.


I know you must travel your road,
as I must travel mine.
But may our paths meet again some time.
[May Our Paths Meet Again aka That Ms. Lai Farewell Song]

Phoebe Pauline Valentine Kribben Sugiharto 朱宝玲, B.S.
110888
Eldest of 3
UCSD Psychology, class of 2008
University of Cambridge, King's College, summer of 2007
TKSS, class of 2004
ICHS, class of 2006, left on 2001
San Diego, California

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